Meta: Falling Star

This was my first serious foray back into original fiction after months and months of fan fiction. It’s a very different process, because characterization and worldbuilding are about creation as opposed to adherence or clear alteration. In writing fanfiction (at least the way I do), the focus is more on building emotional connections between characters and having a well-paced adventure, so that’s what I got to focus on.

Falling Star involved a lot of research on the late fourteenth century in Europe, and then throwing out or altering parts of it because magic. I wallow in description a lot: probably too much, for people who don’t like historical detail, but it was a lot of fun to take the time to show that I had done the research. Lord of the Isles as a title is a bit of an exception, since in the real world, it’s a Scottish title.

Titles for stories are usually a challenge for me, and I generally hate them after the fact, but I like this one, because it works on a couple levels. The body of the action takes place during a meteor shower, so under cover of what are often misnamed falling or shooting stars, with a lot of important bits deliberately staged at night (the introduction, the first real conversation with Arthur, finding out what Rigel had done). All of the characters except Eadweard are also named after stars: Vega for the brightest star in the constellation Lyra, Arthur as an Anglicization of Arcturus,  the brightest star in Bootes (and also to suggest that he’s a good King by way of association with King Arthur), Rigel as the brightest star in Orion. I get a lot of mileage out of that one astronomy class I took in university. In hindsight, I’d have gone for something like Albireo (from the constellation Cygnus) for the King of Alba, because, while it might not suggest a common name for an English King like a modified version of Edward does, it sounds more like Alba and might further suggest that this is Alba rather than England, and things are different here.

Blog fiction: Falling Star

“Let me hold you, please.”

“We can’t. I’m promised to another.”

“Just for tonight?”

She kissed him, fierce and sorrowful. “I love you. Now go.”

As Rigel climbed out the window, a star fell in the distance, the first of a week-long meteor

Lyra leaned out after him. “Don’t pine for me. It has to be this way. I am securing an alliance, and Arthur is not a bad man, so I will be doing my best to be happy.”

Rigel paused on the trellis and met her eyes. The kitchen garden was a long way down. “Does that mean you won’t miss me? That you won’t long for me at all? That you’ll forget?”

She closed her eyes briefly and swallowed. When she opened them again, her eyes glittered with unshed tears. “No.”

Suddenly shame-faced in addition to despairing, Rigel looked away. “I hope he treats you as you deserve.”

Lyra closed the windows reluctantly and watched the moon through the leaded glass. By the time the waning gibbous moon had set, she would be married. She set her forehead on the cool, indifferent glass and prayed for it to stand still.
The morning dawned brilliant gold, the smell of sweet dew and honeysuckle flowing down from the fields. Lyra’s maid, Vega, brought her breakfast and news that Arthur looked spectacularly handsome. Lyra smiled at her, trying to infuse some enthusiasm in the expression. She was not, after all, being forced into this marriage, and Arthur was quite a catch, young and handsome and Lord of the Isles already.

But he wasn’t Rigel. She hadn’t grown up with him, or had her first kiss with him, or spent days with him shirking responsibility by riding off into the countryside. Arthur hadn’t been with her on a summer’s day when she flopped down in a field of wildflowers and looked at her companion and realized she was in love for the first time.

Vega set out Lyra’s wedding clothes while she ate. The kirtle was red, the bliaut a bright blue with tyrian and gold embroidery at the neck and hem. She’d done most of the embroidery herself, and knew which threads had been stained by tears. This was not a day for tears, however. This was her wedding day. Today she would acquire a title not merely honorary, as well as a husband she’d try to craft a life with.

She squared soft shoulders and sought the joy she should rightly feel. She did not let herself pretend it was Rigel she was going to meet.

“My lady, if you’re done, as soon as you’ve changed I can help lace you up”

Lyra made a face at her plate. Everything in her wedding costume was very tight. The end result, she had to admit, was aesthetically pleasing, but she was accustomed to loose tabards for everyday wear. “Yes, of course. Just give me a moment.”

She swept behind the screen and slipped on her kirtle. “I’m ready, Vega.”

Vega set to work lacing her up, a task which took some effort. Then they slipped on the bliaut, and laced it tight with the tyrian ribbons. It pleated fashionably across her stomach and arms. The belt that accompanied it was gold and amethyst and ruby, and framed her well.

Vega dressed her hair, catching it up in a net of gold with small diamonds that would sparkle all the brighter on black hair. Lyra would look well in her role as representative of the Alban throne.
Lyra drew on her own stockings, and then the garters to keep them in place. Then the extra garter, the one she’d throw as part of the wedding feast. It had the year and the coats of arms of both houses embroidered on it.

Applying kohl and rouge was the work of a moment, but she drew it out. Everything had to be perfect.

Eventually, there was nothing left to do. Lyra looked at herself in the glass and reminded herself that it was her wedding day and she would be happy.

Then it was down the stairs and through the halls to emerge in the courtyard on the far side from the steps to the Great Hall. The court and a variety of foreign nobles and every servant not busy preparing the feast crowded the courtyard, ready to bear witness. An aisle had been cleared, leading to where her father and Arthur waited on the steps, the witness from the Holy Roman Empire to the side.

Lyra folded her hands at her waist and tried not to look for Rigel. He’d be somewhere in the crowd, of course. He wouldn’t be able to stay away. She proceeded up the aisle with her eyes on her future husband and her train fanning out behind her.

The stairs loomed far and endlessly farther until abruptly she was ascending the first step.
Her father boomed out, “We are here today to witness the marriage of His Majesty Arthur mac Mordha o Cuinn, Lord of the Isles, High King of Ireland, King of Mann, Earl of Orkney, and Lord of the Blood to Her Royal Highness Lyra verch Eadweard, Princess of Albion and Lady of the Blood. Can anyone name a reason in the law why these two should not be joined?”

The crowd was silent. Lyra half-wished Rigel would speak out, but even his impulsiveness was not enough to overcome the fact that there was no reason under law: not by consanguinity or affinity or prior promise. She and Rigel had sworn nothing to each other. As a scholar of the law, he had to know his bounds here.

Her wedding went uninterrupted.

Her father gestured to Arthur to proceed.

Arthur took her hand and smiled, a dimple creasing his cheek. “I, Arthur mac Mordha o Cuinn do take you, Lyra verch Eadweard, to be my wife in the eyes of God and the law, to have and to hold through storm and sun, and I pledge to honor and cherish you above all others from this day forward. By the Blood I do swear.”

Her hand convulsed on his, and she looked at him in wonder. In swearing by the Blood, he was making vows truly and irrevocably binding, and thumbing his nose at Rome. They hadn’t discussed this – though there’d been no time, really, with contract negotiations and other formalities preventing their spending any time together. Before the pause could lengthen beyond gravitas, she replied, clear and carrying, “I, Lyra verch Eadweard, take you, Arthur mac Mordha o Cuinn, to be my husband in the eyes of God and the law, to have and to hold through storm and sun, and I pledge to honor and cherish you above all others from this day forward. By the Blood I do swear.”

If Rigel had any mercy in him, he would stay away from her now. It would break her heart, but that was better than breaking her vows.

Arthur produced a ring from his sleeve, heavy gold and diamond, and slid it on her finger. “With this ring I thee wed, with my body I thee worship, and with all my worldly goods and estates I thee endow. Let this be a symbol of our union for all to see.”

The Roman priest waited a beat, then cleared his throat and declared stentoriously, “You have declared your consent before the Church. May the Lord in his goodness strengthen your union and fill you both with his blessings. What God has joined, men must not divide. Amen.”

Lyra and Arthur turned as one and raised their joined hands to the cheers of the crowd. And there was Rigel, right in the second row, blue eyes anguished.

The bottom dropped from her stomach. It was hard to keep a smile on her face, and harder still to tear her eyes from his. Arthur made it easier when he slid his hand against her cheek and turned her to face him. His eyes were green as new grass, and vivid with energy, and coming closer.

He kissed her, right there in public. He kissed her thoroughly, and she found herself enjoying it. When he drew his head back, her arms were around his neck, and she blushed.

“To the feast!” her father roared.

They swept inside at the head of the crowd, the new Lord and Lady of the Isles. Lyra would need to be formally coronated at the Hill of Tara once they’d returned to Ireland, and then they’d be able to retire to Dublin.

The Great Hall had been hung with fresh greenery and swags of festive cloth and scrubbed within an inch of its life for the day. The high table sat at the far end of the hall, in front of the fireplace which stood empty for the summer. It, too, had been decorated for her wedding day, and her chair had been moved. As Lady of the Isles, she now held the same rank as her own father. With the festivities, she and Arthur held pride of place, so she was to be seated at the center of the table, with Arthur to her right and her father to the left.

They sat, and the lower tables filled, and the first course was brought out, followed by a man with a lute. He played for the duration of the first course, and the second. Then there were jugglers. Then the third course, and a trio with pipes of different kinds. Then a troubadour, with songs to Lyra’s beauty and Arthur’s valor, threads of King Eadweard’s greatness woven in to pay due deference to the man presumably paying him.

There was endless soft white bread and sweet red wine and the fruits of the hunt the day before, including the deer that Rigel had apparently brought down. Lyra didn’t look for him when it was brought out. She looked at her husband, the man she’d made binding oaths to. She had sworn to honor and cherish him above all others, and to be forsworn was to die. The Blood recognized little nuance and no prevarication.

Arthur laced his fingers through hers and lifted the back of her hand to his mouth.

Dancers came in after the venison, flowers in their hair and on their persons. Each of them presented Lyra with a flower at some point during their performance. She laughed delightedly, and Arthur took them one by one and tucked them into her hair.

It should be a romantic gesture. This should be a happy day. But his eyes were too intelligent on hers, and the wrong color. He probably hadn’t phrased his vows as he had just to annoy the Church. They might have to talk about this.

She drank from the nuptial cup. Enough wine would make the impending conversation and consummation less awkward and painful. When a servant stepped forward to refill it, Arthur leaned up to speak to her, and she filled it only a quarter of the way before watering it. When she caught his eye and quirked an eyebrow, he only smiled. She frowned at him in irritation, then smoothed her expression before looking out again at the lower tables.

The entertainment continued, interrupted by additional courses and the occasional speech – from her father, from the Roman emissary, from Arthur, from Philip, Duke of Aquitaine, there on behalf of his brother the King of France. Despite well-watered wine, Lyra’s head grew heavy and began to spin. She would like nothing better than to escape somewhere cool and quiet where she could be alone to lick her wounds. If it weren’t for the Habsburgs, this might have been a very different day.

Finally, finally, the sun began to set, the rays of light through the windows casting amber and long shadows. As the dishes of nuts were cleared away, Arthur took her hand. She swallowed hard. Soon there would be quiet, and no crowd, but she would not be alone.

They stood as one, and Lyra didn’t have to feign the blush that rose in her cheeks. The Great Hall erupted in cheers and whoops as he swept her into an embrace. He whispered in her ear, “Which leg?”

“I – what?” Oh, the garter. “Left.”

Arthur knelt swiftly, and Lyra steadied herself on one broad shoulder as she lifted her leg. He averted his eyes as he reached up her dress, and his fingers were the barest ghostly presence as they slid up her ankle and calf, and they raised gooseflesh on her skin. Lyra bit her lip.
He found the garter and tugged it gently down, and it slipped free, catching only momentarily on the arch of her foot before he eased it off. Somehow the whole thing was more sensual than it ought to have been, especially surrounded as they were. It was worse because he was barely touching her, and hadn’t touched bare skin at all.

Rising to his feet, Arthur cast the garter to the crowd and then swept Lyra into his arms. “Oh!” she exclaimed softly, wrapping her arms around his neck. “Careful.”

“Of course, my lady.” He whisked her from the Great Hall, away and up the corridor. At the stairs he paused to sweep up her train, and she reached for the wall reflexively to steady herself.

Arthur’s arms tightened on her. “Don’t worry, I have you.” He carried her to his room and set her down. Turning, he bolted the door behind them. “We should talk.”

“Yes. I was not expecting the vows to take the form they did.”

He took off his crown and set it on the table, then set to unlacing his tunic. “I can’t have you making a fool of me.”

“I wouldn’t – I’ve never -”

“It’s not something I hold against you, or suspect you of doing deliberately – after all, you repeated the vows. But I know how you look at Rigel of Wembley, and I will not be a cuckold.”

Rage rose in her, and she gripped the back of the chair until her knuckles were white. “I would not dishonor myself or my kingdom that way, my lord.”

“There’s no need for such formality. I didn’t mean it as an accusation, can you see that? I don’t care what you’ve done in the past, and I know it’s not me that you love, but this alliance does nothing if it looks like you’re pulling the wool over my eyes or an heir is born with only a half-measure of the Blood.”

She wanted to kiss him; whether to make him stop talking or to reassure him, she wasn’t sure. He was her husband, and they were alone now, so she could. Prising her hands free of the chair, she took a hesitant step toward him, then another. She raised a hand to his cheek and leaned up and pressed her lips to his. “Arthur, I mean to put all effort into making this not just a political marriage. And there’s no chance – the heir -”

Lyra stopped talking, because she was stammering and blushing and neither was becoming.
They looked at each other, and the silence was overwhelming.

“Would you like me to call your maid to help you undress?” he asked, and his voice was a little rough.

“No. Could you please help me with my laces?” She raised her arms slightly to indicate the ties on her upper arms. Not just their inaccessibility but her own trembling made assistance attractive. Arthur called forth a heat in her that weakened her limbs, and she despised herself for it because it rivalled the effect Rigel’s presence had on her, but on a purely physical level.
She half-feared she’d be unable to hold on to even the memory of her love. Arthur would be present, and he was magnetic, and he was her husband. Even if leaving her love for Rigel behind would spare her heartache, she wanted to be able to ache for him. She wanted to yearn. She wanted her feelings not to be meaningless, and it felt as if they would be if she fell in love too easily with Arthur.

Arthur kept his eyes on hers as he slowly unlaced the right side of her bliaut. “So you never -?”

Even in an agony of embarrassment, she couldn’t pry her eyes from his. She reached desperately for dignity, but managed only a soft-voiced sort of shyness as she said, “I knew my duty, my lord.”

He smiled wryly, and leaned in to whisper in her ear, “I thought we were disposing of formality while we’re alone.”

At the touch of warm breath, a shiver ran down her spine.

“Do I make you nervous?”

“No,” she breathed, and he drew back to look at her face. She knew her eyes were shining gold even as his were over-vivid emerald.

He touched his lips to hers, gentle and exploratory. Oh, if only she had fallen in love with him, this would be perfect.

Her laces were undone enough that her bliaut loosened seemingly all once, slipping from her shoulder and exposing the kirtle underneath. Lyra slid her hands into his hair and threw herself into the kiss. His lips, and the heat from them, were her lifeline against the paralyzing chill of nerves. She needed something to distract herself as he slowly undid the laces on the other side.
Arthur nipped her lower lip, and she trembled; once, all over, and quite hard.

Her bliaut loosened enough to slip free completely, and she lowered her arms to let the sleeves fall and to help it slither from her hips. She stepped back out of it, and then picked it up and draped it over the chair. She slipped out of her shoes as well, and stood barefoot on the stone floor.

He was looking at her hungrily. Lyra swallowed hard. This would be the time to put the effort in, to show that she could do this. She reached for the laces of her kirtle. Arthur reached for the laces of his tunic again.

They peeled themselves out of their clothes until they stood their in only their undergarments, Lyra feeling very exposed in a chemise that covered her from chest to ankle. Arthur drew her into his arms again, and all was thunder and lightning.
If he had not been Lord of the Isles, it would have been sensible to ride to Holyhead and cross from there to Dublin. It would have given Albion more of a chance to see them and celebrate the alliance and generally throw a party.

But it had been determined that a coronation would be more auspicious if it occurred during the meteor shower, which gave them only a week to get to Dublin and thence to Tara. So the practical result was that they progressed in state to the Thames, and their way was lined with people armed with flowers and well-wishes. A state wedding was next best thing to a holiday, and Lyra and Arthur scattered coins in return for the flowers.

King Eadweard followed behind them, and most of the court behind him – including, far back, as was appropriate due to his rank, Rigel. Rigel’s eyes felt hot on the back of her head.

It made her feel dirty, though she hadn’t at all last night despite everything that had passed, and she’d bathed only this morning. At the river, Arthur helped her on to the little boat that would convey them down to where his ship was anchored. It was decked in ribbons and garlands, to announce their presence to anyone who wanted to observe their progress from the shore. Numerous other small craft were tied beside theirs, to convey baggage and servants and accompanying dignitaries.

They cast off, and drifted out towards the middle. Then, without discernible change in anything but the vivacity of Arthur’s eyes, they were clipping along at high speed towards the Channel. Lyra grinned as she gripped his arm. When she was coronated Lady of the Isles, they’d invest her with some of his powers. She’d hold sway over storm and sea as well as her own smaller purview over living things: the same purview that told her that the night before would bear fruit.
She’d have to consult with Arthur before exerting her sway, though: too many conflicting influences made systems wild. She’d learned that on the herb garden, thankfully, and not on anything more irreparable. Her mother, who’d taught her before she’d passed, would have had her hide if it had been the roses rather than the basil.

They would see how much influence she could wield when barricaded by water. As her father’s heir and now Lady of the Isles, she’d be enriching the harvest on all of the islands in both kingdoms, and the prospect of constantly being on progress did not appeal. Lyra wondered how the Greek Lords and Ladies managed it, though they feuded and diluted their blood enough that they might just be one per island at this point.

Arthur asked, “Does the speed distress you?”

“No, it’s exhilarating.”

He laid his hand over hers on his arm, and squeezed. “I asked Rigel to join our train.”

She stiffened, enraged. “Do you seek to punish me, my lord?”

Confusion flitted across his face, then hurt and disappointment and understanding all bundled into one. “No.”

“If I fail to honor and cherish you above all others, my blood will boil in my veins, driving me mad before it kills me along with your heir. And yet you bring along temptation, in full knowledge that by his presence you make me a starving woman at a poisoned feast.” She turned to smile and wave at the people gathered at the banks of the Thames who waved so enthusiastically at them. That duty discharged, she turned back and added a belated and withering, “My lord.”

“That wasn’t my intent.”

“What was your intent, then?” she hissed.

They lurched forward suddenly, a sign of uncontrolled emotion on Arthur’s part. “I didn’t want you to feel alone. You’re only bringing one personal maid, and you’ll be expected to collect ladies-in-waiting from my court and you won’t know anyone. And, aside from everything else, he cares about you and will try to see that you’re happy.”

Even in the face of his awkwardness and apparent care for her well-being, her voice dripped ice and ichor. “Is that not what my husband is for, my lord?”

He stared at her in frustration. “I’ll be busy.”

She tightened her lips and looked back at the banks.

He took his hand from atop hers to wave at the observers on his bank.

They had passed Dartford and were well on their way to Gravesend by the time he spoke again. “How sure are you, about the heir?”

“My Blooded talents lie in living things, my lord. That doesn’t just mean crops and trees and flowers.” He should have known this.

Suddenly he dropped her hand where it rested on his sleeve and slipped his arm around her waist, instead, drawing her flush against his side.

Lyra looked at him, too surprised to elbow him as he deserved for grabbing her so suddenly. He looked gleefully satisfied, as if all his wishes were coming true. Which she guessed they might be – he had a wife who broadened his base of power, he was now heir to Albion, and he would have an heir nine months after his wedding night. An heir with a healthy measure of the Blood, and more than Arthur would expect. Powers of life were often forgotten, because as long as the Lords and Ladies didn’t do something dramatic, the crops would flourish and come in, only slightly more generously than an un-aided good season. Some didn’t push things to that extent, though, or didn’t have the power to. Lyra had been able to assure that Albion didn’t starve since she was twelve years old, and they’d only grown more fruitful since.

Until she was invested with a measure of his purview by dint of the ceremony at Tara, Lyra would not have easy access to anything dramatic, but drama was the only thing her power lacked.

She settled her arm across her stomach, content that the thing inside her, barely a whisper more than potential, would eventually be a Lord or Lady of frightening reach and breadth.

Standing and waving had become boring but not unduly tiresome by the time they arrived at Southend-On-Sea; the benefit of being wed to the Lord of the Isles. Another water Lord might have been able to perform the feat of bearing them this quickly, but it would be illegal to do so. Her cousin Philip, Albion’s own water Lord, had been notified well in advance, and had made sure nothing he was doing would interfere with her and Arthur’s passage.

The estuary opened up, and the water was less smooth than the Thames proper had been. Lyra was glad for Arthur’s arm still wrapped around her, as it would be tremendously undignified to stumble.

Arthur’s ship rose in the harbour, a trireme with his pennant flying high. A ladder dangled from the side.

Lyra paled and asked, “Will we need to climb?”

“No. There’s a platform they can lower. You don’t like heights?”

“I am not overfond of them, no, my lord.”

“Fascinating,” he said. “It will be an interesting experience, getting to know the woman behind the frosty formality and snarling.” He was smiling as he said it.

“I don’t snarl, my lord,” she protested without force. She could get used to this sort of banter. It was almost comfortable.

The boat came to rest on the port side of the trireme, and a platform, sure enough, was lowered. The platform was wide enough to stand on with Arthur, with excess enough that their boatman could have come with them if it would not have been excessively familiar.

The platform rose surprisingly smoothly, and Lyra looked up and saw pulleys easing the way. It was still a relief to set foot on the comparatively much steadier deck of the ship. Arthur introduced her to the captain of the ship, and escorted her to the stateroom that would be their home for the night.

She heard the rising noise of others coming aboard – amongst them undoubtedly Rigel. She wondered what premise Arthur had used to invite him. A study of Irish law? Or had he been more straightforward, and invited him to be his wife’s lover. She wished she knew what he was thinking. No matter what his plot, he kept her occupied as they cast off, showing her the small shelf of books and the collection of charts and where her clothes would be stored when the servants eventually caught up with the baggage.

“What would you like for dinner tonight?”

“Salmon,” she replied instantly, with Rigel’s favourite dish.

He kissed the side of her head. “I will see to it before I send us off.”

He closed her in the state room, and she wasn’t sure if he’d meant her to stay. She took one of the books from the shelf and admired the marginalia as she thought. He kept touching her. It was his right, of course. He was her husband. But she was already working on providing the heir, and she was unsure whether marital duties included letting him take her hand and touch her hair and all the little things he’d been doing. They were possessive and almost affectionate and they unsettled her deeply.

It’s what she would expect from Rigel, almost. Or maybe expect in a few months, when they’d been married longer and she’d had time to foster an affection for him. It wouldn’t be hard – he was clever and seemed to want to make her happy, even if he was going about it in strange ways.

She concluded there was nothing she could do about it, and it would be better to take her mind from it. Arthur would not be available for a detailed conversation until after they’d made landfall in Dublin, and that would be the morrow. It was nigh-miraculous, the speeds they could make with him aboard. Without him, it would be weeks by sea.

The marginalia on this page were really quite strange: a river inhabited by weird creatures meandered down the page. She turned her attention to the content itself.

She closed the book very slowly, and put it back. It was possible he thought she could not read, but it was still strange to keep a book of dark pattern-magic in his chambers.

She drew out another book, a history of Roman highways.

It was a much more soothing read.

Eventually, she was called to dinner, asked very politely by the ship steward to dine with her husband and the captain in the greatroom.

When she joined them, Rigel was there at the far end. She tried very hard not to catch his eye.

When the meal was over, she retired with Arthur. He wooed her again, and drew her to him, even though it was not necessary.

She did not sleep easily.
He rose before she did, and they once again picked up speed. It was only mid-morning when they passed Land’s End, and Lyra gazed at the rocky desolation she had thought truly the end of the world when she’d been young.

Ireland began looming at noon, and they had docked by early afternoon. When someone had sighted their ship, runners had been sent, so there were carriages waiting to meet them when they alit.

When they had travelled from the din and dirt of the dock, Dublin proved a fair city, with cobble streets and white buildings. It put her in mind of Oxford, though the streets were not as narrow.
They did not go straight to the palace, but directly on to Tara, on roads rougher than those found in Albion.

The hill itself was greenest emerald, and ringed in celebrants and holy men. The rites there were strange and old, and their secrecy weighed heavy as a shroud.

At the height of them, Lyra stared at Arthur in wonder, because she could feel everything. The earth in its soft verdancy was a constant, but joined now by an awareness of the rivers and fish and lakes and ocean. She swayed on the spot, but Arthur’s hand on her arm kept her upright. He touched her, he was always touching her, and she found herself drowningly not minding.
She leaned on him as the coronation ended.

The journey back to Dublin was slower, more processional, partly to allow for the guards who trickled in to accompany them. Because she was Lady of the Isles, now, she was privy to Arthur’s meetings with them, which weren’t about security at all but about reporting everything they’d learned on a reconnaissance mission to the Holy Roman Empire.

One night a man with a German accent was brought in, and he was filthy and Lyra hated the way he smelled.

“He has been – uncooperative,” one of the guards said. “But he was a servant at Habsburg castle. I thought Your Majesty might like to – talk to him.” The guard shot Lyra guarded looks all the while, and she was utterly unimpressed.

She set aside her embroidery and stood and put a hand on Arthur’s shoulder. “If you need him tortured quietly, husband, I can suck the life from him.”

Arthur squeezed her hand, pleased and reassuring as the guards and the prisoner all showed fear. It’s good, she thought, because she would not be undervalued in this new life. “It’s not necessary, my Queen. I think our guest will volunteer any information in his possession in hopes that we grant him amnesty.”

Lyra took up her embroidery again, and listened to the interrogation. The servant answered everything he was asked, even giving up those names he’d heard as Habsburg sympathizers in the Irish court. There weren’t many, but Lyra gathered from the hard glint in Arthur’s eyes that at least some of them were well-placed.

It was late by the time they let him go, and Lyra was tired – too tired to be shocked when Arthur drew her to him for sleep, wrapping his arms around her and burying his face in her hair.

She’s unsettled in the morning, and hadn’t much slept. They were to be one more full day on the road and then the next morning to Dublin, but she wished forlornly for four walls and a real bed. The meteor shower was over, so there was no lure to the outdoors after dark.

Rigel rode up next to her, stopping a distance away that wasn’t quite improper but wasn’t ideal, either. “You look unwell,” he said, his voice pitched low and concerned.

She shook her head slightly. “Arthur was interrogating a Habsburg servant. It took some time.” She looked at him and ached. “I’m fine. You should go.”

He fell back, but she could feel his eyes on her.

One of the benefits of taking this journey more processionally was the fact that they stopped for lunch, that servants had set up a picnic on a hill, with linens that only faintly bore the creases of storage. Arthur helped her down from her horse, and said quietly, “I saw you speaking to Rigel.”

She looked at his face, held impassive but for slightly overbright eyes, and raised her chin. “Yes,” she said, matching his tone, and did not elaborate.

Arthur dropped his gaze first, and looked at where he still held her hand. He led her to the table, and she let him. She carefully moderated her breathing as she sat, because she didn’t want to give away any emotion.

The attempt was apparently unsuccessful, as he squeezed her hand reassuringly as soon as he was seated across from her. When she looked at him, he smiled a little ruefully, and she smiled back, just a bit, just as a conciliatory gesture.

Lunch was almost pleasant, and not just for being a change from road fare, with apples and well-watered spiced wine.

When they got back on their horses, Lyra was almost pleased with the world.

That ceased abruptly when the first arrow flew, striking the ground in front of Arthur. Arthur’s horse shied and reared, which was the only thing that saved Arthur from the second volley. Guards were already springing into action, driving their horses towards the woods from whence the arrows came.

The third volley, though, was swift, and accurate. Arthur fell, an arrow through his throat.

Lyra was dismounted and running before she quite knew what she was doing, racing for her husband. Guards stopped her, shielding her with their bodies.

“Move!” she screamed, all dignity forgotten. If she could lay hands on him, if she could just touch him, she could fix it. She could save him, if she caught him before he bled out.

The guards, confused, move sluggishly, and she shoved them out of the way. More arrows flew, and she couldn’t do anything, because they were neither alive nor of the water, and one struck her in the shoulder.

Everything went grey and hot and cold, and Lyra couldn’t tell which way was up.

She woke hours later, in the tent she’d shared with Arthur, and sat up. Her maid and a guard are the only ones in the tent. “Arthur?”

The guard looked down, and away, and silence fell in the tent.

Her throat closed. She lay back down. “We’ll move out tomorrow, when I will be recovered from the attack. Send runners to Dublin with the announcement, and to Albion.” She took a deep breath, because she had hoped to keep word quiet until she was closer to showing. “Send word also that I know by my Blooded gifts that Arthur’s line continues.”

The guard made a soft noise. She didn’t look at him. Eventually, he left.

That night, Rigel slipped into her tent, and was clutching her hand ardently before Lyra was even properly awake. “You’re a free woman, now,” he said earnestly, his fingers laced tight with hers.
Understanding dawned violently. “Tell me you didn’t.”

“You’ve fulfilled your promises, and now I have an established channel for negotiations, if you want more guarantees of your security.” His eyes went soft and liquid, the way she remembered liking them best. “And it means, if you wish . . .”

Her throat worked a moment soundlessly before she could shout, “Guards!”

Two burst into the tent, obviously alert at their posts.

Lyra kept her eyes on Rigel and voice steady. “Rigel has just confessed to conspiring with Habsburg agents in the assassination of Arthur. Take him away, extract the names of his co-conspirators, and execute him by beheading.”

The guards hesitated, perhaps taking in their intimate positioning.

“Do it,” Lyra said.

They dragged Rigel out, and he didn’t even protest, just stared at her.

She stared at the ceiling and waited for tears to come. They didn’t, though, and eventually she rolled out of bed. Arthur’s book of pattern magic needed to be discarded completely, rather than secreted in the chest where she’d spotted it the night before. Very carefully, she peeled up one of the rugs that formed the floor of the tent, and asked the grass to move out of the way.

It did, and she moved the dirt with her bare hands and buried the book, then asked the grass to grow again, and to send its roots deep enough to start eating at the book. She put the rug back and washed her hands and turned her attention inwards, checking that healing the wound to her shoulder hadn’t harmed the hint of possibility that she would have to rely on now for political capital. Her shoulder was mostly fine, her belly in perfect health, and she sighed in relief.

If only she’d been able to reach Arthur sooner – no, that was an unproductive line of thought. She had a war to plan, and a long dark night to make it through alone.

Meta: Victoria

I really enjoy writing about places: the idea of setting as character is an aspect of CanLit that’s really stuck with me. I like to think that generally I can keep a narrative going, but this piece was really designed as self-indulgent location-porn. It’s not particularly plot-heavy. A lot of the way it’s framed is because I can’t quite conceive of actually doing travel writing and making it interesting to anyone, but I love architecture and the things that make each place unique.

Fic: Victoria

For a city forty miles from the infamous Forks, WA, Victoria gets surprisingly little rain. This is because the Olympic mountains catch all of it for us; on a good day, one can stand in the sun on Dallas Road and watch the rain fall on Washington.

But Dallas Road is all the way out in James Bay, and just the view isn’t worth the 45-minute walk from city hall when one has the glory of downtown to explore. I walk down to Chinatown past the condemned apartment building and the charming self-contained Victoria house, past the construction pit that will be the parking lot for the swank shops going in at the bottom level of the redone Hudson Bay building. The chirping ‘walk’ sign signals me, the two business-women in pumps and skirts, and the meth-head waiting on the corner to cross. I duck into the old brick yarn shop on the corner and browse for a minute, enjoying the air-conditioning and half-heartedly contemplating Christmas presents. It’s July, but if I’m going to make anything, now’s the time to start. But the sheer range in the knitting store makes it hard to choose, and intimidating; what if they judge me for using the wrong kind of yarn for the pattern I’ll inevitably have to buy? They’ve always been nice to me, but I’ve heard rumors about what led to the local knitting societies splitting in two.

Most of the local arts scene is like that, though; the two straight literary magazines are only on speaking terms because of shared editorial staff; the University-managed one is much pickier, and charges more for each copy (but also gives away more free copies), and they can, because they get government sponsorship. The community issue has an acceptance rate of an obscene twenty percent because, without the government sponsorship, they don’t have nearly the advertising budget, and so rarely sell out a print run. And neither of the straight literary magazines so much as acknowledges the Science Fiction magazine unless it’s winning another award; genre fiction makes both editorial boards uneasy and faintly afraid. They are more comfortable with poetry, and would publish their magazines entirely as chapbooks if they weren’t so much work and there was some clear way to pay the bills. And if Munro’s, the largest independent bookstore in the city, whose facade looks somewhere between a Greek temple and a Georgian bank, carried chapbooks. But Munro’s hallowed halls only carry things which have been machine-bound, and so the literary magazines continue contracting with the printers.

The yarn store doesn’t hold me long – people are trouping in for some class or other. I continue towards the harbour and Chinatown, and pass the Chinese school and the Lee Club and the city-commissioned mural which faces the building with the aged and faded “7-up: the Un-cola” ad taking up the upper storey and a half.

I’m in luck; the Chinese bakery is still open. I go in and jostle with four other customers in the shopfront the size of my bathroom to get my hands – separated by medium of tongs – on pineapple buns and melon bread and an egg tart and a Korean barbecue roll. The barbecue roll is still warm, probably fresh from the kitchen in the back, where the owner bakes everything on display. I buy my goods in cash from the owner’s wife in a nearly silent transaction; I speak Mandarin, not Cantonese, which in hindsight seems a silly choice. At the time I was planning things that were utterly derailed by Nanna’s Alzheimers. As I put my change away she goes back to an animated conversation with an old Chinese woman sipping a Tim Horton’s coffee. When people around me are speaking a language I don’t understand, I always have a sneaking suspicion they’re talking about me. Which I know is silly, but, well, I’ve caught some of the French-speakers here at it a few times. The best part is the looks on their faces when I spew Parisian gutter-French at them in retaliation.

I hurry past the tattoo parlor next door, where I can see some aging biker getting something on his bicep, and round the corner to Chinatown proper. It’s the second-oldest Chinatown in North America, and some locals will argue that it’s really the oldest, since San Francisco burned down in 1906 and therefore shouldn’t count anymore. Dragon Alley, which used to be one of the main housing projects in Chinatown, has been turned into upscale shops. It was first designed as a way to pack as many Chinese immigrants into one place as possible, according to the plaque on one wall, but it’s been ‘reclaimed’ by designer dog treats, an exclusive hair studio, and what I’ve heard is an upscale brothel, which has a lovely little water feature in front of it.

But Dragon Alley leads away from my destination, so after I’ve bought Ramune at the crowded Asian grocery store I jaywalk across the main drag of Chinatown (a sleepy two-lane cobbled street) and turn down what looks like a dingy access passage. It opens quickly into Fan Tan alley, the spinster sister of Dragon Alley. There are two resale shops, a used record store, and Triple Spiral, a shop that sells mostly jewelry and Tarot cards. All of the shopfronts are painted bright colors, even though the shopfronts themselves are just the strips of wood outlining windows and doors in the red brick of the colossal building they are all carved out of.

I could cut over to Wharf Street here, avoid all the foot traffic of the end of the work day, but I head to Government Street instead. It’s Thursday, which means that the chalk artist whose name I’ve never learned will have recreated another masterpiece on the sidewalk. I’ve only recognized two so far – Girl With A Pearl Earring and Mona Lisa – but they’re gorgeous, and I love that we have someone here who can do that. He’s done a detail from Waterhouse, this week. I stop in the middle of the sidewalk and juggle my bakery box to dig out a notebook and pen. I want to look up the full painting when I get home (I, unlike everyone even on this island out of time, don’t have a smartphone). I garner a couple annoyed looks from passerby forced to step around me, but other people are slowing to look at the chalk, too.

Past the gargantuan Bay building, which dominates arguably between one and four city blocks, depending how you divvy up the warren of downtown into “blocks,” it’s an easy slope downhill to the Inner Harbour. Darth Vader, a local violinist, is just packing up for the day at his corner across from Visitor Information. I smile at him as I go past, though I can’t see whether he smiles back behind the mask. There’s always some kind of knot of tourists in front of Visitor Information, and I slip through them on my way to the stairs. The stairs hug the seawall on the way down, and are wide and shallow and a little uneven, since they’ve been part of the promenade for something like a century. As usual there’s a mix of homeless artists under patio umbrellas obviously nicked from the seafood grill just up the stairs and around the corner and professionals doing caricatures and selling art cards from small tables. I meander down the promenade to the dock for the bum boats, those tiny little water taxis roughly the size of minivans. If it weren’t for the ocean kayakers, they’d be the smallest thing on the Inner Harbour.

Jeremy finishes his shift, and the bum boat tours for the day, in about twenty minutes, so I park on one of the oversized steps of the promenade, tucking my skirt around me. A quick glance at the Visitor Information clock tower affirms that, yes, I haven’t been able to magically skip ten minutes in the walk down the stairs. I open the bakery box and dig out one of the melon breads to pick at while I wait for him. It’s a far cry from the high tea being served above me and across the street at the Empress Hotel; iconic finger sandwiches in a formal English garden that now hosts a statue of Emily Carr, our homegrown leading light in art. I did tea there once, when I was visiting Nanna a few years ago. When Nanna would think of things like that, and still had the wherewithal to plan them. We’d done a tour of the Legislature, too; the center of government that also served as building-shaped art framing a third of the harbour. The Empress, by the same architect in the same sweeping and gothic style, makes up the center third. And on the left as you entered the harbour is Visitor Information with its useful but entirely unimpressive Art Deco clock tower.

Jeremy is finally done, and I rise to meet him, brushing off the back of my skirt. I snag his arm, and we walk companionably back to his condo in James Bay for dinner and my own personal escape from the obligations that lurk in the heart of downtown.

Blog fiction hiatus

You may have noticed the lack of fiction updates the past couple of weeks. Their lack is partly because doing any more of them will involve either more trawling through my ancient archives or writing new flash fiction. Writing new flash fiction is currently on hold because I’m nearing the end of a project I’ve been working on since roughly the spring of 2010, and am really excited to finish.

It’s also because I’m moving. In two weeks time I’ll be on a bus headed from Seattle to Minneapolis as the middle and longest leg of my trip from Victoria to Madison. I’m moving for a multitude of reasons, and aside from my own abhorrence of moving and lack of car, it’s been a fairly straightforward process: I’m still going to be doing webwork for the same bike store I work in now. The only thing that will change is no customers and I can work in my pajamas. I am going from living with my mom, where I’ve been staying since the end of my lease, to living with my best friend who is already doing things like unpacking the boxes I’ve mailed and crocheting me my very own blanket. My EMR license is viable for reciprocity, so I don’t need to take classes again, just do NREMT exams and local jurisprudence, all of which I can set up there.

Regular Wednesday blog posts will continue for the duration, as I have them scheduled pretty well in advance, so the only difference should be the lack of fiction posts. 

Meta: Snowglare

This is undoubtedly one of the cruelest things I’ve ever written.

I wrote it in the summer of 2011, and, like so many things, it was for Adam’s contest. The prompt was parody, so I wrote a parody of a person.

She’s since become a friend, but at the time I was having a lot of difficulty connecting with her. She’d initially taken critique very badly, and then become reliant on getting critique (mostly from me or another friend of mine) before turning in, and hadn’t had a particularly good English education (which is something I shouldn’t hold against people, but tend to in writing-oriented settings). She’d also written a story with me as a character in it, with particular attention to my bosom. I was neither pleased nor comfortable with this. Since then, she’s grown in leaps and bounds, and joined me in the semi-finals this year, as well as being published several times over the course of the year. She and I have also talked a lot more.

Her username is The Solarized Night, which gave root to a lot of the imagery: the Northern Lights, the Aurora Borealis, are the result of solar flares, and are most visible at night.

Luminosity is a term for self-awareness.

She lives in the Southern hemisphere, while I and Adam live in the Northern hemisphere.

With that knowledge, everything else about the poem kind of falls into place: from vague imagery about long nights and the Northern Lights to excoriation of someone I did not consider as acting rationally or particularly intelligently and considered attention-seeking.

What’s worse is that she liked the poem, but did not understand the meaning (I will probably link her this post).

Also I got a perfect score for this, the only one I’ve ever gotten. It is the reason I’m one of five people in the Hall of Perfection, and it can also be read here.

In sum: cruel and petty idea, well-executed.

Poem: Snowglare

Aurora’d e’entide
–as close to dark as it gets this far north–
any perceived brightness a mere matter of snowglare
light-starved crystals glittering with all their might
that the dim shimmer might pass for luminosity
and draw all attention

Meta: Crazy Fairies

So, on Google Drive, in my Writing folder, I have a sub-folder labeled Shorts that has a sub-folder labeled Old.

That’s where this is from. It was written in the winter of 2007 or 2008: I’m not sure which. I only uploaded everything to Google Docs in 2010, because I didn’t want to lose all of the writing I’d done for the writing group I was part of in high school.

So this is how far I’ve come as a writer in the last five years, and contrasts with last week when I posted something just barely finished. It’s also an experiment in how far I’ve come as a person able to objectively critique my own work and not just go hide under a rock.

Apparently this was based on a dream I had. Oh! And I think it was around New Year’s in 2008, as I drew this:

Apparently these are the characters?
later in January 2008.
So, since it’s been so long, we’ll do the first run the way I do first runs on most things: caustically.
I am not sure why I am all dismissive of homelessness except that the perspective character is a sociopath. Also dead bodies under plants are kind of a Japanese thing and I was going for Irish.
In the second section, the second sentence is telling rather than showing and could be tightened. I’m not sure if inconsistent capitalization of Garda was meant to be a character thing or is just a consistency fail.
No idea why it’s so painfully pseudo-British except I think part of the prompt was that I had to include the word ‘chesterfield.’
Lots and lots of telling.
Abrupt shifts! Also telling. Also run-on sentences.
The line about bestiality, and that whole scene, are really awkward. I still find it hard to write those awkward transitions from revelation to calm discussion to acceptance, but fainting is no longer something I tend to use to avoid those transitions.
I don’t think they even read the Glob and Snail in Dublin. I have no idea why I included it.
I think I was trying to do a thing about speech bubbles and fairies seeing all spoken language as speech bubbles, but I don’t think that came across very well, and has no time to sink in before it’s over. Synesthesia is something that interests me, partly because a friend of mine has it with music. Magical synesthesia seemed like the doubleplusgood version of it.
In conclusion: interesting idea, poorly executed.

Fic: Crazy Fairies

Warren shoveled dirt over the body until the soil came up a few inches below the rest of the flowerbed, then filled the rest with topsoil. Later, his sister would plant flowers. He couldn’t, as the blood still on his hands would be bad for the tiny plants. When the last topsoil was in place, Warren hurried inside to shower. He never felt really cleansed of a kill until he’d soaked himself in scalding water. It wasn’t in the least a moralistic thing, but the scent of the homeless crazies they picked up (after assuring that they had no friends who could be coherent to the garda) tended to be rank, and cling. But they were so good for the flowers, who never minded the smell.


Cait dragged another box up the narrow, steep stairs behind the new shop. It was her job to take things up to the ‘house’ part of the row house while her parents set up the butcher shop. She’d no idea why her brother got out of helping, as he had vacation coming up from the Garda, and ought to use at least some of it to help with the move. Returning to the van, she grabbed another box, then turned and bumped into someone. “Oh!”
Warren took the box and smiled. “Sorry to give you a fright. I’m your neighbor just across the passageway, Warren Blithe.”
Cait smiled at the charming man. “Cait Hurley. So you’re the florist?”
“My sister, actually. I mostly just do the heavy lifting. Speaking of which, give you a hand with the boxes?”
Cait glanced down at the box he held and considered the stupidity of letting a stranger into her new home, the looked up and smiled. “Sure. Just follow me up the stairs.”
Warren and Cait carried up the rest of the boxes and wrestled up the chesterfield together by the time the other Hurleys had finished setting up the butcher shop for the day. Warren stretched a hand out to Mr. Hurley as he came in the door. “Hello, Mr. Hurley. Warren Blithe from next door, just thought I’d come over to help you move in.”
“Well, Blithe, happy for the help. Cait, why don’t you run down to the chippie we passed and pick up some for everyone.”
Warren smiled and offered. “I can show you to one just down the street.”
Cait returned his smile, a little shyly. “That’d be great.”

When the butcher shop opened, Warren and his sister Shannon were the first customers. When they closed the shop up for the day, the five of them went to the Indian restaurant a few blocks over for curry.
Warren spent the weeks insinuating himself further into Hurleys and Cait’s life. She was an amazing girl, and Warren found himself interested in her mind as well as her other charms. So he took her out for coffee, for a night at the pub, to the local football match. And felt himself slipping, getting too involved.
Involvement with humans was discouraged on any deep level, as it became tempting to tell them things that threatened everyone. But Warren told himself he wasn’t that involved, even as he fell.
He found himself thinking of her all the time, though tried to contain it when contemplation of her during fertilizer acquisition ended with a disturbing mental image of himself slitting her throat.


He really shouldn’t. But that didn’t stop Warren from leaning in, tasting her. Then it had to be more than just a taste, because she was so damn sweet. Then he had her back pressed the wall of the passageway, and she was clutching his neck, and she made a little noise in her throat, and he felt himself tumble. A golden glow spread between them, and Cait broke the kiss. “What’s the glow?”
Warren looked down, then squarely met her eyes, searching them. A pure soul, pale as ice, but so much warmer, Cait didn’t have any part in his world, where a social misstep could lead to bloodshed and a political mistake to eternal exile. Maybe that was why he loved her. “It’s my heart.”
Still pressed close to him, Cait looked at him, and in a small voice, said, “Most people’s hearts’ don’t glow.”
Telling a human that he was fey, with it’s attached sentence, should be the toughest decision of his life. But with Cait, somehow it wasn’t a decision at all, and so the words spilled out, “I’m not human. I’m Fey. And I love you.”
She looked him straight in the eyes, looking for truth, and he dropped his glamour. His gray eyes shone brightly silver, the dark hair reflected blue, and horns shimmered on the top of his head.
Cait took all of this in, and fainted.
Warren carried her inside his house, to be greeted by Shannon leaning in the doorway of the kitchen. “You know I can’t protect you from Fob on this one, right?”
As she referenced the local Fey lord, Warren felt a chill go down his spine. If Fob found out, it would get really ugly. Though he couldn’t harm Cait; no Fey could legally harm a love match, even if they were only human. Warren didn’t look at Blithe as he responded, “I know.”


Cait regained consciousness quickly, and Shannon made herself scarce. Cait looked at Warren, then around the room, then back at Warren. She didn’t say anything. The silence stretched out, until Warren, who should have been well used to tense silences, broke.
“I love you, too.” The words spilled from Cait’s lips softly.
He read her face, her words, and the constriction on his chest eased. “What about . . . the other stuff?”
“It was . . . a shock. Um. Really. But it doesn’t matter.”
Warren cocked a brow at her. “Most people tend to balk at interspecies relationships.”
“Ew. So totally don’t condone bestiality.” Cait smiled at him.
Warren let out a soft laugh, and kissed her again.


Fob sat on a bench at the corner of the park reading the Globe and Mail. Warren crossed to the other side of the street and hunched his shoulders to try to avoid notice.
“Come here.”
Warren flinched as the words reached him, then turned and crossed the street to Fob, not bothering to look at the traffic he barely avoided being run over by.
As Warren sat, Fob turned a page, but didn’t look up from his paper. “So, you told her.”
“Yes.” Warren didn’t question how Fob knew. You never questioned Fob, and he always knew.
“Well, since you’re so fond of spilling secrets, you’ll continue spilling them until the day you die, but no one will believe you, because you’ll be drunk and crazy and say ‘ma ma ma millennium hand and shrimp’ every second sentence.”
That didn’t seem such a terrible curse. Warren could control that. Actually it was a bit of a funny curse. Seeing the words ‘millennium hand and shrimp’ hanging in the air was actually quite hilarious, and Warren slouched over trying to contain his laughter. “Ma ma ma millennium hand and shrimp? That’s fabulous.”
His words didn’t come out as expected, the words crooked and the letters hanging drunkenly off each other. In dawning horror, he watched them bounce off each other and recombine incoherently.

Meta: Fairy Tale

It should be noted that this was written in the past week, in an inchoate rush for the finals of Adam’s contest.

He told me to write a fairy tale, and that it couldn’t be a retelling.

After like an hour reading about Aarne-Thompson classifications and other components of fairy tales and nagging people for prompts and a failed first draft that involved Spivak pronouns and arguments and some really overcomplicated stuff with AI and gender, this happened.

The central idea was that the Devil always gets his due, and Orphne would lose in some way that didn’t actually involve being triumphed over (thus, cheating at cards).

Then somehow the seven deadly sins?

I wanted to have all of them, with the kind of double thing that the Devil, whose initial sin was pride, would be caught up in lust, and the nymph, who is generally associated with lust and deals mostly in that, would have a mistake of pride.

It came out really well, I think. I don’t even know. Next week: something I pull from the depths of the archives, and lengthy and embarrassed meta.

Edit: I won the contest! Wooooooo!